Oh inner compass, where are you right now? I am hoping y'all can't actually feel the stress jumping off the page. I'm writing this while trying to reteach DD how to fall asleep on her own.
If there's one word to describe our family, it's "snuggly". We didn't set out to co-sleep. It started with me napping with DD and falling in love with the rhythm of sleep we got into. And falling in love with the miracle of waking up to her gorgeous dark eyes just staring calmly at me, waiting for me to wake up too.
Once she was a toddler, my husband felt safer with her in the "big bed" and she started taking weekend naps with us sometimes. We all work so much and so hard, and just taking that family respite was a huge bonding time - added bonus? She sleeps about an hour longer for nap when she's in the big bed!
We were all happy with this arrangement - she could fall asleep on her own in her toddler bed AND fall asleep with us sometimes. Until about 2 weeks ago. As much as I love our snuggly sleep time, I know it's short lived now. I always said, "As soon as she gives us a hard time about sleeping in her own bed, big bed sleeping is over". As much as I will miss the security and comfort of having her beside me on the pillow, and as much as I will miss the bliss of half my body hanging off the bed while her whopping 3 feet dominates the mattress, and as much as I will miss stinky little feet in my face at 4am... it's time to prepare myself for the separation.
But then, it seems that's what parenting consists of. Constantly preparing ourselves for the separation. I just know that it feels right to start weaning all of us off of the co-sleeping in the next few months, even though it's incredibly difficult to actually do. Listening to her cry that she "wants a friend to sleep with" certainly doesn't make my heart sing. I know my compass sits deeper in me though, and the jumpiness I feel when I cave and snuggle up is a pretty clear indicator to me that I have to give it up soon.
But I wouldn't change the way we did it for anything.