I think the "resolutions" thing has jumped the shark, but making absolutely no intention on a day with potential to symbolize new beginnings feels... empty to me.
One year, we decided on New Year Words. I think my 1st work that year was "BALLS" - yes, the year of the BALLS. Life seemed to me jerking me around all the time, and I had to look carefully and say "You know what, JJ? If ALL of life is jerking you around... you're probably a doormat". That year, I learned that speaking up for yourself does not cause the world to fall of its axis. The pendulum might have swung too far to the opinionated side for a hot second, but that's just growth.
The next year was The Year of YES. Yes, I'll be happy to accept that job I feel completely unqualified for. YES, I'd love to get pregnant. YES, let's pick this whole she-bang up and move it somewhere lovely by the ocean.
The next 2 years are a blur, and that's a shame because they were probably powerful.
Last year, 2012, was The Year of Effervescence. I didn't feel necessarily sparkly, and I thought maybe I hadn't met that intention, but my husband pointed out that creativity overfloweth this year - a new biz, the new blog, a lot of side things, my 1st to photography shoots... I like his view of bubbles.
This year I'm taking a page from my old blog, Marrow and Meaning. This year, I want meaty, meaty moments in the space between words. I want to feel I've eating a fabulously succulent peach before I go to bed. I want to read books that fill my mind with inspiration, I want to spend meaningful, juicy moments with my child, I want to
And more than anything, I want to finally make real, meaningful steps toward pursuing my Big Mission, The Kahuna Calling, the Mission that came to me in the spot of all spots, the best thinking spot ever.. the can.
Yup. Got my calling on the can this month. Sort of like in a hotel, where they have that nice telephone in the bathroom? Except my bathroom phone is connected to Source, Inner Guidance, and All Things Wise and Wonderful... and it called me in the bathroom.
BALLS to the YES to the EFFERVESCENT to the... MARROW.
All these roads let me to my biggest dream yet. In this year, I want to begin align everything I do - live, love, work, play, parenting - to be the real deal. The life of my dreams.
Why is this on the parenting blog? Because the life of my dreams is tied directly into transforming parenting for first time moms who suspect motherhood could be a whole lot more joyful and easeful.
Didja get that? Let me shout it a little louder, because the Calling on the Can said:
No new mother should ever feel alone.
"I came to the woods," said Henry David Thoreau, "because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and to see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived... I wanted to suck out all the marrow of life".
To suck out all the marrow of life, I will be spending my year charting a new course towards aligning my "work" with my soul's mission, the purpose for the horrific post-partum depression suffering... I've paved that road. Now I will illuminate for other first time mamas who dream of joyful parenting.